Monday, July 16, 2012

Brain's been chewing

Been thinking about a lot of things lately in regards to this. The biggest revelation was a friend asking John what the most important thing to him would be. He started by saying my experience and happiness, but she persisted- what was most important for HIM! He said that he doesn't like to be the center of attention. He doesn't want it too be too rigid and orchestrated- he would prefer for it to be casual and relaxed- people can just do their own thing. (Clearly the ceremony is generally planned and overall there is an outline of events and organization). This thought was so profound to me as it took me out of the mindset of planning every little detail and getting my heart set on things going a particular way in a particular order and how foolish that would be! Much better to continuously remind myself what it is all really about- celebrating our union. That this is about everyone having a good time, not forcing people to do certain things. I want to provide options- fire, a photo area, a place/way to leave us messages, a place to boogie, food, etc, but not need to have them used at a certain time, way or by certain people.

Thinking of John not wanting to be the center of attention will be something else I have to be mindful of- there are ways to muffle that sensation- for example- with the first dance, perhaps I could dance with my dad and he could dance with his mom and then everyone can join in and then we join together so it isn't everyone staring at him :P

My approach is to gather all the info that sounds exciting and inspirational to me. Even stuff I know I could never work out myself. Then from that I start weaning it down to some really meaningful things that I think I'd like to have involved. I want to keep in mind simplicity, eco-friendly, and casual and relaxed. I love knick-knacks and things in their right place and themes and random awesome decor and favors and presents, but I want to step back from all of that and consider two parts of that - 1) the less I spend on the wedding the more I have for the honeymoon and 2) those THINGS aren't what make the wedding memorable. Less can be more. The moments, the interactions, the laughter and the joy are the memories. Making it for me and mine and about me wouldn't necessarily require more than me showing up- I don't have to have a zillion themed decorations to emphasize and even take away from me.

This blog has served largely as a gathering for all that initial inspiration and I have done some categorizing and commenting to indicate the pieces that stand out. I have thought about the issue of most of my family being in NM and most of our friends and his parents being here in CA. I have thought about how it would be cool to have it at home, but perhaps not very realistic with probably a minimum of 75-100 people (all those spouses and kids- most of my 50ish people I listed out are family (and their guests), and not any aunts or cousins either!)

I have thought about the issue of kids- not sure why it gives me an ooky feeling to have children there. I suppose a mixture of worrying that they will disrupt and take the attention away during the spiritual and ceremonial parts. I guess I don't want them stealing the attention, but that is pretty ridiculously greedy- pretty sure I will have plenty of attention on my own wedding day :P Even if I didn't want children under a certain age to come, there is family that would have them and it seems unfair to request the kids not to come. I can of course provide kid-friendly activities and even super distracting kid activities to keep them occupied. It was suggested that I involve them, but I am pretty meh on that idea. As a kid I went to several weddings and mostly they were boring and stressful- had to be all dressed up on on my best behavior and yadda yadda.

As for the actual bridal party I have thought about that a bit. John's best man will definitely be a woman. He doesn't have many guy-friends. As for my maid of honor, at this point in my life I have a wonderful handful of very diverse lady friends, none of which is somehow massively closer to me than the rest. When I think about what the bridal party is for- a group of people close to me that I want to help me coordinate and help this wedding happen, I get a better idea. When I think of who I want as my point person, my #2, I think of my mom. But when I think of making her wear a bridesmaid dress and go to my bachelorette party, that seems all wrong- she will have her own unique role in the wedding without needing the title of maid of honor.

Also I don't have to conform to these pre-defined party-members. I can come up with whatever support team/group with whatever names I want. Mine. MWAHAHA! But as for not hurting anyone and not asking too much of anyone, that gets trickier. I want someone to be able to be close and easy to call in a heartbeat and creative and excited about the same things as me. I want someone who is comfortably able to drop other things and help me out in the week preceding. I guess a lot of these will again be filled by mom and I don't have to worry about all that :P For the actual day of the wedding, for who I feel really right and comfortable with as being separately recognized, I would say my sister Kiva. Otherwise I would just involve all of my ladies as equally as possible as they will each be a valued treasured presence in this event, just as they are precious friends in my life.

As for location, if it were in NM and not at my dad's house, there are many options. As I am quite interested in (at least part) outdoor, NM is a great choice for the stars and the rarely rainy weather. I would imagine there could be venues just as expensive in either state, and awesome deals as well. I want somewhere unique and special (who doesn't) and against the grain, but I do understand there are places designed to host and serve a pile of people and that will be a wise and efficient place to be :)

If it were in CA, I am not sold on a beach location really, though I remain open to it. I saw a beautiful area in the Rancho Santa Ana Botanical Garden that would provide this out-of-the-city and in a secret garden feeling as well as a nature-y surrounding. I want trees and moonlight, dammit. If it were here in CA and I needed to bring all of my ladies together to help me get ready and do all the finishing touches, I would wish to do all of that at John's parent's house. When I think of getting ready and having my moms do my hair and make up, I can't imagine it in my 1 bedroom apt. :) I want them to be in PJs and have late night giggles and breakfast, and we would need a larger location for that, and a hotel doesn't look right in my head. My family would certainly not all fit there, but if my ladies and maybe my moms (?) stayed there, some of the less financially *wiggles fingers in search of words* well some people could crash at Mata's and some could get a hotel together. If we were in NM, I would want to do the sleepover/getting ready at my dad's house for the same reasons.

I don't need it to be big, but I have a huge family, so it's kinda all or nothing on that front. As for friends, together we do not have a huge massive group, so I think it would be under the 150 mark or close to it. 

I want it to span across more than one day and have some activities to contribute to the memories/celebration. Some examples I have seen that I liked are going to an orchard and gathering peaches or strawberries and then using them for a meal everyone shares. I like the idea of the bridal party/anyone who wants going paintballing in thrift store dresses. It isn't a cheap option but something a decent size group tends to have a blast with and really enjoy each other's company in that is memorable and unique that I know NM has to offer is white water rafting. I wouldn't mind a hike to gather wildflowers for some deco or just for fun. I would LOOOVE to somehow involve a trip to see saltwater fish tanks however that could be arranged, but that is something -I- love and I am not sure if it would be meaningful to anyone else- it is something I could do alone anytime :P
I like rollercoasters/disneyland so that could be an option, though again, mega expensive. I love zoos and a zoo trip would be a blast :) I wouldn't mind a board game night (or multiple nights!) and maybe a puzzle out for chilling out! I would LOOVE a fishing trip, but I would only want people to come if they would enjoy it :P

Anyway, that's quite enough for now. I will gather more of my thoughts and jot down some more of the results of all the chewing on these ideas :)

Wednesday, June 20, 2012


Here are some rings I like :)

I don't want diamond
I don't want gold
Sapphire- yellow or green is preferred (yellow is probably more preferred than green, but either are lovely)

slightly too chunky- I prefer a slimmer band like my college ring

alllmonst too square, but I love it :)

should have gotten more shots of this one- it is hard to see the dimensions from this pic, but I also love this one

I seem to like Art Nuveau?

No diamond, but the setting is nice:

I don't like the gems held with big toothy prongs- I prefer a deeper setting

neither is quite right, but both hit on things I like :)

Wednesday, April 25, 2012

Unorganized ideas

One of my favorite things was asking everyone to wear the colors of the wedding (blues, gold, silver, gray, and black) and getting a group picture of everyone who came.

Our guest book was made up of photos that guests took in our homemade photo booth. The end result was a stress-free day that allowed us to really visit with our guests and celebrate in our own way.

Guest favors

Raw honey in little jars :) (from Jeremy's bees?) Love the vintage feel of the burlap (from

Seating chart mcbobbers with people's names engraved/burned into wood slices :)

Sparklers!!!! Love it!

Maybe bubbles, ribbon wands (careful with the fire though.. :P) I have always thought those fiery lanterns were amazing. I would love to send up a tuft of each of our hair or something weird like that and everyone could watch them float into the night sky :)

Guest book ideas
Old suitcase! :)

They LOOK like chocolates, but they are for planting! Could make some for TX, CO, and CA :)
hese  garden truffles are handcrafted bon bon balls of clay, organic compost and seed, presented to your guests like chocolate. Just warn them that these aren’t meant to be eaten!
All Garden Bon Bons are hand-made using a centuries-old technique of rolling seeds with rich organic compost and clay into a ball. The compost provides nutrients and the clay protects the seeds from insects. There is about a packet-worth of seed in each Bon Bon. We present our unique seed balls as special garden truffles, a different shape for each seed – and have dusted some with natural pesticides like ground coffee and cinnamon.

If not a photo booth- strategically hung photo frames :)

A funny and memorable pamphlet

For a guest book, they plant/place a succulent cutting in a little vertical garden! Love it!

We also asked that everyone bring their own plate and cup as a gift. We kept about 20 of our favorites and gave the rest to the local refugee resettlement program


Assuming it is outdoors, a tent can be a good idea in case of rain, though not usually an issue in NM? But you plan so far ahead you NEVER know what weather you will get so it is good to have a backup and a backup or the backup. If there is a tent, I like the lighting it up from underneath and projecting leaves like you are under trees

I want fire. Fire pit? Bonfire? Candles? Fire. must.

Ok the altar- I like the wooden alter- grapewood, wood connected with rope... this one will take a while to get right, but here is some inspiration :)


What about a meat pie! :)

Not quite right, but I like the colors/woodland feel

Action figures to decorate the food :)


I am taller than John in heels and awkward in heels. If it works, and at least for after the ceremony itself, I will prolly do the traditional-non-traditional converse :)

Simple, cute, nature shoes :)

Headpiece- more steampunky than I need, but I LOVE the shape and colors (from

Old Key buoutonniers! Love it!

Simple whimsical dress?

Parasols particularly the silhouette photo behind it :)

Brutus will need an outfit...


I love found objects- beautiful things we discard and look past even though we seem them regularly. I like the look and feel and smell of old wood, old books, etc etc. That inspires things I would want to put around to be pretty :)

Books with succulents!n And a nest- perhaps where the rings are?

Imagine jars of honey from Jeremy's bees! Sustainable- made it yourself, grew it yourself- from the family- that all sounds awesome to me! :) I like the little succulent bunches in jars as well

Love ASOIAF and I think some of these ideas are awesome- weirwood tree, sword fight/fake death, exchange of cloaks!!!

I love things hanging from trees- lanterns, planters, etc. Here is a gorgeous wreath with candles - a chandelier if you will

paper cranes! I like them, like making them :)

A may pole could be a lot of fun!!


From SproutHome

Unusual plants- like the colors on this one- and of course the purple spirals!
Love the pitcher plants!

Great colors - love the blue. Wouldn't mind some black/dark purple flowers too

Love calla lilies :)



Unexpected centerpieces

LOVE trees- can put lots of stuff on the trees if I want too :)
Could also do cigar boxes with art I made in them

Succulent bouquet thing :)

Intro :)

This blog is where I compile and share my ideas and inspiration for my wedding someday :)

So far I know:

I don't want a diamond ring.
I don't want a gold ring (white gold is fine)
I'd like a green or yellow sapphire (or other durable stone)
I'd like an antique/Edwardian ring setting
I'd like to be married in NM
I'd like it to be outdoors
I am interested in having the ceremony at night under the stars
I wouldn't mind having horses involved somehow :)
I would like Brutus to be there
I want as much DIY/hand made decorations that I can put together with my family as possible. I know this can sometimes be even more expensive, but the lack of desire for glitter and ruffles might curb that.
I want to emphasize time planning and decorating WITH my family and friends, not hire someone else to do it all
I want to accept help from professionals when it is best :)
For flowers, I like large tropical flowers like birds of paradise and pitcher plants, but I also like strange alien looking plants like succulents
I want nature to permeate the decorations- wood, leaves, etc
I want a distinct lack of Christian ceremony (handfasting?)
I like combining the soil of where we are from
Maybe everyone can light a candle on a big candle alter or tree (like Habana's amber glass candle tree)
I would like the menu to be as grain and refined sugar-free as possible
I wouldn't mind if there were no alcohol, but I don't want everyone to suffer :-/
If you were to ask me right now, I would have Steve Pence marry us
I want Steve and Erin to sing, and Catherine too
I want to have a bouncy house. At the reception or the rehersal or wherever.
Maybe a photobooth- people seem to have really had a good time when they get one

Ok, on to the pictures and inspirations I have gathered :)